Thanksgiving

Going around the room in a staff meeting was a no brainer when the inevitable question arises...What is everyone thankful this year?....usually the ugh....lets see there is the i can't walk, I'm in pain, i am heartbroken......no not this year....I got to say I am thankful for my Owen all 20 years worth of him. He will be 21 this year. Each day is just another gift and reminder to me that love exists.

I walk these days. I am stiff but as a friend said, you are not in pain and not crying all the time so life is pretty darn great. One of the weird things about botox is though it helped ease my gait, it made me aware of the utter strengthless body I have. Without the hyper tone. I can barely go up stairs. I thought all this time it was muscle and now I know its spacticity I never thought I would say I was thankful for spacticity, but there it is I am. I can climb stairs again. For months this has been more difficult than I care to mention.

So rather get all wound up about what I can not do, or all the things I do not have, I am thankful for my Owen, my friends, my family even though they will never know me the way I might hope for, my yard and right now my newly made warm and cozy bed. Focusing on what is good really does help life seem worth living and worth caring for people despite the risk that entails.